hi people. yeah I didn't blog for a long time. lol. as you can see,I've changed a lot, pain does that to people. I deactivated my twitter and facebook account too and I'm better without em'. after 9 months I get to know this one girl and 9 months of trying so hard and fail all the way to make her happy. we fight all the time. but I'm starting to give up and never fight for you back. I don't know. I suddenly like don't care about you anymore. I do, but not as much as the last 9 months. I don't know what's going on but its like there's nothing I feel about you anymore. we're good but I don't even matter if we don't talk more than three days and surprisingly I don't wait for your talk anymore... I don't miss you that much as I did before anymore. I don't bother about you as much as I did before anymore or get sad about you anymore... it's like, my feelings for the last 9 months towards you just gone. you used to be the amazing thing in my life but now, not anymore. and our convo asyik dead je and I don't try to make effort to talk to you anymore. I dont know, its better if we just not being friends anymore... I used to tell you that I'm afraid of losing you someday but right now I just dont mean it. I'm over you already. I dont get sad or mad if you're with other juniors anymore. I know its weird that I don't care anymore but this is real. my feelings towards our friendship, its there anymore. even it is still there but its not the same as how I feel for the last 9 months. I seldom think about you anymore. I used to care about you a lot but day by day I realized that, you're no longer the person I used to love. our friendship is not failing apart but I just feel this few days back and yeah. I wish I could love, care and think about you just as much as I did BEFORE. I tried but I just can't. that feeling wont exist anymore even if I tried my best. you've brought out the best in me, true that but right now you just don't.. even if you do, I dont feel it anymore. I'm feeling like this is because maybe you had me for the past 9 months but you just didnt see me? or you just want me when you know you can't have me anymore. I don't know, I just don't but honestly. I dont feel anything anymore towards you just as much as I did from january until november. I'm sorry for everything but I dont feel it anymore :/
