You are the only exception.

I never thought I would be this sad. There's someone who used to be my greatest friend. used to advise me a lot of thing. used to care for me too. It's my fault for taking her for granted. She was always there for me. She gave me a lot of chances. She tried her hard to make me to be a better person somehow. I just take her for granted. That is my biggest mistake I've have made. Now my life is full of regrets. I should have listen to her in the first place and just LISTEN. I tried to make things where it used to be but she just don't wanna me anymore because she's tired of me. I saw her yesterday at school, I wanted to see her and give her an explanation but by the look in her eyes. I know she wouldn't listen to my explanation and maybe just walk away. She wont even look at me yesterday. came back from from school I got a text from her. It was long and I can tell she's hurt. Blame me. before this I seriously can handle things by myself and couldn't be bothered of her but day by day I started to feel something is missing. and it's her. call me crazy but I really need a time machine cause I need to travel back to the past and make things right again. like she said sometimes recovering from an accident just doesn't go very well,so the injury stays there permanently. even if we try to make things right again it would never be the same as before. some things are better to be hurt than keeping it inside. You don't know how sorry I am, I'm sorry for saying sorry. I just want the old us and be happy for each other again. it's okay if you want it this way. I understand. I'd rather have nothing than half of you. cause I want it all or nothing at all.

Love The Way You Lie.

Hi. So I woke at I cant really remember. I'm starting to forget a lot of important things now, I dont know why. hih. I think I woke up at 10 kot? Idk, sumah. Then bathed. And all. Ingat kan nak sekolah tapi tak jadi sebab demam. So I followed my gramma to send Intan at the airport. I slept in the car because tak larat langsung. Came back home and went upstairs online. Tengah online, phone jatuh, keypad rosak, macam babi ah. Skype dengan orang and then bathed again. I COULDNT REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED TODAY I MEAN SETENGAH BENDA JE KOT. URGHH ANNOYING AH. Keluar balik pukul 8 to fetch Intan back at KLIA. Then went home again. And I'm here. Nothing interesting happened. You texted me, and cakap I reply nak tak nak. My keypad rosak, I've told you. Then reply ni salah, reply tu salah. Fine certa takyah reply. Tahu lah kalau kau hilang aku pun kau tak kisah. Aku ni penting mana je en. okay then, bye.

Cleaning Out My Closet.

HI. Sorry I didnt post anything. I iz zo tired yesterday can literally die. Yesterday I woke up at 11AM I guess. Then mandi makan pergi sekolah. Nothing interesting actually. OH WAIT. Yesterday kan, during BM me, Syamimi and Arief played Taiti. Muka semua pokerface gila. HAHAHA. Then tiba tiba Arief dia main dgn newspaper. Syamimi lah, Dia prgi ambil nespaper tu buat jadi bola and asked Arief to letak macam boobs. HAHAH IT WAS FUNNY. We just said 'letakkan je' and Arief pergi buat stripping kat dpan class. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. EL OW EL. So yesterday ada match Singapore vs Malaysia kan? Singapore asyik asyik terbaring kat rumput, TAK CUKUP SUSU KE APA? Oh well. Harima Malaya 4lyf. Win or lose, tanah tumpanya darahku~ And and, yesterday ada ceramah Anti Rokok. I laughed, and I dont knw why, HAHAHHAHA. Then I got tired of laughing I fell asleep for a while. We didnt learned alot yesterday bcs teachers suruh buat kerja sendiri and we all were like 'TAITIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!' Gamma, Gamma. Hahaha best class ever. I cant really remember what happened yesterday. asdfghjkl. hm. okbye~

I'm No Superman

Hi. Well last night was pretty cool ... I had this argument with Nashuha last night like yeah. I cried a little bit. HAHHAHA KANTOI SIAL. Dah gaduh semua benda tiba tiba she said she wanted to meet me today. so I was like oh okay~ Then she texted me back at 1 AM I think? she said ' if youre reading this, DONT JUMPA ME TOMORROW I'LL TELL YOU ESK.' I was awake and replied that text and asked why, then she said ' oh I baked brownies for you but tak jadi, jadi keras macam batu, kalau baling kat anjing pun mati, tapi sedap ah' I WAS LAUGHING REALLY HARD!!! EPIC FAILURE. HASHAHHAAHHAAH. But I know Nashuha's brownies is the best brownies I've ever heard but not tasted yet. What, so its special to me okay. So I guess we're okay now (: Okay I woke up at 6.30AM today. And study sikit and text dgn Nashuha for a while and prgi tidur balik and woke up and 11AM, Mandi, Makan pergi sklh~ Sampai sekolah duduk kat perhimpunan. So En.Rosman berceramah about disiplin and stuff. Continued by Anti Dadah punya ceramah. I swear I didnt payed attention AT ALL. HAHAHHAHHAHA. Then tadi dalam class I played Taiti with my 2 Gammarians. I won. ALL THE GAME. well, kalah sekali je. HAHAHA. Then pergi class KH at Makmal Computer located at Block B, HEHEH MY FAVORITE. I just noticed that I havent do my KH notes just now. It scares the hell out of me. Pn. Roziana kot. Lucky thing she didnt want to check our note books. WOOO SAFE AGAIN. Teacher buat quiz and I was shitz, I iz dont know anything about KH yaww. So I buat buat to drop my pen. And i just duduk bawah meja computer for hours. HAHAH SANGGUP. Cikgu tak perasaan pun. HEHHE then masa cikgu cakap 'okay sampai situ je.kemas barang and boleh balik.' and I was screaming ' OH. BARU JUMPA PEN. WEE.' HAHAHAHA JAHAT NYA ARIESHA xD Pastu balik rumah, I went upstairs and as usual pergi my room and saw one fucking ugly monster on my bed. HAHAH JUST KIDDING. IT WAS INTAN. SHE'S BACK. WEEEEE~EHHHHH. I feel something's missing. Its been a while tak cakap dgn Syamimi. EH WHERE ARE YOU, MY LOVEEE? D: heh I miss you... ok bye~

Hi Ustazah Sharifah Sarham.

Supp. So today was .. okayy. Datang sekolah je semua 'ARIESHA, ARIESHA, ARIESHA' haha watlek watlek. Then semua nak ambil bag aku buat bantal pula, haha -.- The moment I eneterd 2 Gamma, I was like 'sup people~' and were like 'fuyoo fringe baru' haaa, babi lah. Surprisingly I didnt skipped any classes today. Thats a good start I guess. Ye lah kaki sakit memang ah tak jalan en ;p Then MATHS, almost kena marah with Puan Mariam. She was like checking my book and said to the whole class "okay, buka muka surat 87 buat lathina paper 2, soalan 4 dengan 5 skrg' and the whole class was like 'cikgu dah lama dah buat benda ni cikgu' I was shit, gahh, then ada orang like distracted cikgu. I WAS SAFE! haha. So I decided to go toilet, I mean I really need to, tak ada cikgu dalam class so keluar je lah. Fuck my legs. Tengah jalan, jumpa ustazah sharifah. ITS LIKE KENA MARAH EVERY PART KOT. NAME IT. SHOES. LENGAN. BUTTON SEMUA AH. HAHAHAHHAHA. Then finally went to toilet keluar toilet ada satu cikgu ni, I swear to god I never knw that teacher in my entire life. She was like ' apa itu imigrasi tempatan' and I was 'huh?'HAHAHAH. I never payed attention during Geo. Well who does in 2 gamma. Walked back to class peacefully. Was singing 'stereo hearts' and Melor got annoyed by me. I knw you love me, Melor :* HAHAHAHA. I'M SO MEAN TODAY. Masa balik was supposed to be seni, but Puan Norlia didnt came so our english teacher ganti. I played Taiti with the gamarians, HAHA MESTI AH AKU MENANG. HAHAHAH. Semua mcm tak puas hati I won, they were all like 'ish Ariesha main macam pukimak gila, nasib sial menang'HAHHAHAHA BENGANG KE BRO ;p TAITI FOR LIFE. Nampak En. Rosman je simpan semua. Hoohohoho. So Nashuha texted me today. Well it was ... awkward. Will be meeting her in front of 2 Gamma tomorrow, cause she said she wanted to give me something, its from her mom btw, Puan Salasiah~ Tah kiteorg pun tak tahu lah we're okay or not. Its just tergantung like that also can lah. HAHAHAH. ok. OHHHH!!!! My phone rosak. Cannot on my twitter, facebook or anything to do with social online stuff. Only can receive text message. I found my charger. I'm just getting weaker day by day~ bye~

Turn Me Up When You Feel Low.

Hi. so my previous post.. just forget about it. I'm tired of putting my hopes at someone. So today I went to Jakarta bcs I had an emergency stuff there. Pergi kejap je. Balik hari. Intan balik on Rabu. I dont feel good right now. I dont know why. I'm just not normal. Tomorrow, I'm going to school. Finally. Its been awhile tho. I have a lot of things in my mind right now but I just wanna keep that in my mind. Heh. I just wanna say something to someone right now. You shouldnt said sorry to me just now if you know that you're gonna hurt me again. I'm just saying. I just hate today. Its the worst day in my life. I wish I could go back where we used to be happy for each other, smiling and laughing for hours. But its just cant be that way anymore. Eventho we keep on trying, things couldnt work out like before. You've shouldnt treat me right before if you're gonna leave me this way. Because I gave all my hopes on you. Its just that you're the first person that made me happy for like, I cant forget all the happy moments. But people come and go in life. All we have to do is move on. You've got your friends and I'm just by my own like before. It was a nice experience with you. I mean, from there, I've learn a lot of things and I've grown stronger. I've never been ignored for like days. I've never hurt myself like this. To me now, pain is just something common. Ignorance is just like my new bestfriend. Thanks to you for making me stronger and heartless. The best part is, I've learnt to let go someone you really love in your life. I'm just heartless now. Enough said. Thanks for the memories. I'll never be the same if we ever meet again. Bye.

Wasted

I thought you were different than anyone else. I guess I was wrong. I just arrived KL from Jakarta and got a text from you. I was so excited because it was from you. But once I read I feel so.. idk. Everyone told me to leave you but I didnt cause I'd still trust you. Eventho I know that you lied or what. When we text, you'd always busy but I do understand. I know you're busy with your works and friends, I do. Remember last time bila you didnt text me I would go emo and all. Then you told me that you didnt like it, so I stopped. That one night we were laughing and happily texting each other. I was happy on that night. I swear to Allah. Then on Wednesday we texted but you were busy, then you texted me back a week after. Yeah a week after. I waited. Tak emo pun kat twitter. Bcs I know you'd hate it. You said that I treated people all the same, and make them feel special, and thought you were special but no? Everyone was annoyed by me. You know why? I keep talking about you all the time. It didnt make you special enough? I'd stare at my phone almost every one hour for your text. People keep telling me to leave you cause I dont deserve to be treated the way you treated me, but I didnt give a fuck about them at all. I never wanna lose you. You would think that I'd say that to everyone but no. When I said to you, I really do mean it. You just didnt realize. When I'm down. I thought you'd always be there for me, but someone else does and it wasnt you. And I was hoping you'd ask why. Nope, you didnt. I know that you have some other friends that more important than me. Bila dapat jumpa kat sekolah je mesti you would layan semua org except me. Its like I'm invisible. When I talk to you, you wouldnt give a shit about it, you wouldnt laugh, or smile, it hurts alot, I just dont want ruin your mood so diam je lah. But I just wished that you'd be there for me for at least once. When someone else like talk to me when I'm down, I just wished that person was you. When someone else treated me like IDK WHAT TO SAY, but I wished you treated me like that. But its okay. I cant do anything about it. So you want me to die now? okay fine. Go on and leave me. I'd appreciate whatever you've done for me. Everything. Thanks alot. Be happy without me. Dalam dunia ni ada 2 jenis org. First : orang yang bertuah. Second: orang yang bodoh macam aku ni. Tahu kenapa aku bodoh? because I'd do anything to make you happy but you didnt appreciate me. I just wasted my time just for you. But now that you met the juniors other than me. You just forget about me and starting have no time for me but for them. Dapat junior yang cool cool, kau lupa orang bodoh macam aku. Well I do know that I'm stupid, not cool enough for you, problematic kid and just menyusahkan hidup kau. I do have a thing that the lucky peoples dont. My heart. Aku ada hati, kau je tak nampak. I'm in serious pain. You just dont wanna see my heart. I was stupid for wasting my time on you.