Wasted

I thought you were different than anyone else. I guess I was wrong. I just arrived KL from Jakarta and got a text from you. I was so excited because it was from you. But once I read I feel so.. idk. Everyone told me to leave you but I didnt cause I'd still trust you. Eventho I know that you lied or what. When we text, you'd always busy but I do understand. I know you're busy with your works and friends, I do. Remember last time bila you didnt text me I would go emo and all. Then you told me that you didnt like it, so I stopped. That one night we were laughing and happily texting each other. I was happy on that night. I swear to Allah. Then on Wednesday we texted but you were busy, then you texted me back a week after. Yeah a week after. I waited. Tak emo pun kat twitter. Bcs I know you'd hate it. You said that I treated people all the same, and make them feel special, and thought you were special but no? Everyone was annoyed by me. You know why? I keep talking about you all the time. It didnt make you special enough? I'd stare at my phone almost every one hour for your text. People keep telling me to leave you cause I dont deserve to be treated the way you treated me, but I didnt give a fuck about them at all. I never wanna lose you. You would think that I'd say that to everyone but no. When I said to you, I really do mean it. You just didnt realize. When I'm down. I thought you'd always be there for me, but someone else does and it wasnt you. And I was hoping you'd ask why. Nope, you didnt. I know that you have some other friends that more important than me. Bila dapat jumpa kat sekolah je mesti you would layan semua org except me. Its like I'm invisible. When I talk to you, you wouldnt give a shit about it, you wouldnt laugh, or smile, it hurts alot, I just dont want ruin your mood so diam je lah. But I just wished that you'd be there for me for at least once. When someone else like talk to me when I'm down, I just wished that person was you. When someone else treated me like IDK WHAT TO SAY, but I wished you treated me like that. But its okay. I cant do anything about it. So you want me to die now? okay fine. Go on and leave me. I'd appreciate whatever you've done for me. Everything. Thanks alot. Be happy without me. Dalam dunia ni ada 2 jenis org. First : orang yang bertuah. Second: orang yang bodoh macam aku ni. Tahu kenapa aku bodoh? because I'd do anything to make you happy but you didnt appreciate me. I just wasted my time just for you. But now that you met the juniors other than me. You just forget about me and starting have no time for me but for them. Dapat junior yang cool cool, kau lupa orang bodoh macam aku. Well I do know that I'm stupid, not cool enough for you, problematic kid and just menyusahkan hidup kau. I do have a thing that the lucky peoples dont. My heart. Aku ada hati, kau je tak nampak. I'm in serious pain. You just dont wanna see my heart. I was stupid for wasting my time on you.