Can you feel the love tonight ?

Dude, Lion King really made me cry like hell . Its almost 3 AM and I still cant sleep . Wow what kind of person am I actually . Sometimes I wish I could be in the movie that I really like , example , Narnia , Lion King , or maybe some cool old movies . People always say that I cant stick to one bestfriend , well Im trying now man , Its not that Im choosing or what , I just want the best . When you want someone to your bestfriend , its like you have that wonderful feeling you can never had . When Im feeling it now . And I know . Its just so hard to make them feel comfortable with who I am . You must know me very well . Because I have something different that can make you feel very offended or regret being bestfriend with me , so know me well and learn it to be my friend . Dont worry , Im friendly , and cant get mad for a long time . Im kinda weird and could be annoying to . But maybe I can make you laugh ? or maybe not ? depends .

I just want a really true friend that dont betray me , ignore me , use me , and so on . I got one , which is Anis Adina . I want another true friend like her but same age as me , thats what Im looking for . Im hoping on her , her ? is someone I really want to be my bestfriend and she's the same age as me . Now I wanna talk something else . I hate being alone but this my destiny , Im alone now . Since my mom give birth to my twin sisters , she dont really care about me anymore , everyday including school days and holidays, I always stay in my room all alone . My mom always think im surfing the internet , but she got it all wrong , I just stay in my room alone , doing nothing but think about my future . She always thinks I didnt work hard for my studies , she always thinks im in my room and went online , but I did my best to study till midnight . She just can really understands me . So do my friends

Have you ever feel my situation right now ? Im not happy here , not at all . Im pretending im happy but inside , im hurt enough . And everyday im talking to a pencil , because in my house , there's no one , NO ONE , wants to hear my problem , my stories , my ambition . I just feel lonely now . In school , I really talk so much right ? its because , when I step my feet in my house , its like , im invisible , no one cares , no one even ask me anyting. Thats why im talkactive in school and kinda annoying . Am I born to be ignored ? I just cant get the fucking problem that i have here . and I dont wanna get it . My life will the same . No one can change me . so I think , I have enough to tell my stories here , goodbye people , check check rock rock :)