You are the only exception.

I never thought I would be this sad. There's someone who used to be my greatest friend. used to advise me a lot of thing. used to care for me too. It's my fault for taking her for granted. She was always there for me. She gave me a lot of chances. She tried her hard to make me to be a better person somehow. I just take her for granted. That is my biggest mistake I've have made. Now my life is full of regrets. I should have listen to her in the first place and just LISTEN. I tried to make things where it used to be but she just don't wanna me anymore because she's tired of me. I saw her yesterday at school, I wanted to see her and give her an explanation but by the look in her eyes. I know she wouldn't listen to my explanation and maybe just walk away. She wont even look at me yesterday. came back from from school I got a text from her. It was long and I can tell she's hurt. Blame me. before this I seriously can handle things by myself and couldn't be bothered of her but day by day I started to feel something is missing. and it's her. call me crazy but I really need a time machine cause I need to travel back to the past and make things right again. like she said sometimes recovering from an accident just doesn't go very well,so the injury stays there permanently. even if we try to make things right again it would never be the same as before. some things are better to be hurt than keeping it inside. You don't know how sorry I am, I'm sorry for saying sorry. I just want the old us and be happy for each other again. it's okay if you want it this way. I understand. I'd rather have nothing than half of you. cause I want it all or nothing at all.